A week ago you wanted nothing more to do with me and me you. We were arranging to meet up merely for me to be able to shout at you for behaving like an insensitive prick - or at least that's how I saw it - and I wasn't even sure if I was ready for that yet.
And now you're acting like everything's okay. Like we can behave the way we used to. Like the past three months didn't happen.
Like fuck you're going to be able to walk all over me again. It's tempting to let you, but I just need to remember how you've behaved. You should know I can't trust you any more. And this behaviour is just messing with my head.
Yes, I'd like it if we could go back to before. But there's no way in hell that's going to happen any more. And you saw to that. So seriously don't go looking for it again. I've moved on from that and my nostalgia will not let me fall into that trap again.
You treated me like nothing. And now that's all we are.
I need to remember that.